It's your option, anything.

The connection sucks today because it's reached the package quota that I've signed. It took me about 20 mins to start this post. So basically, many thoughts appeared again while I was taking my wonderful shower. To be frank, the brain can function really well and stay conscious even though that's just a 15-20mins shower time.Yes, gotta swear the perfect moment of the day would be the shower time. Great thing is by taking a shower, it could wash away the dust on the body as well as the tiredness of mind and what you can feel is the freshness. So honestly, I loathe people call my name or disturb me when I am enjoying my precious piece of time in my own heaven.

So, 2 days to the Christmas Eve. The guest list looks okay. I've sent the invitations to almost 14 persons and guess how many are attending this Friday evening? Cool, around 5 outta 14 are the confirmed guest. If you think I'm unhappy with the number of guests who's going to attend the party, you're totally wrong. Personally the amount is okay just that something is making me frown the eyebrows for a few days and well, I don't want to talk about it. OKAY, I'm going to tell you a bit of the dramatic story.

Yes, they think I'm the one who has problem with the particular someone that I'm inviting but why don't they try to change to think this way? A bestie of mine told me this: "Ya maybe she knows you don't like her so she's not joining." Oh, that moment, I think me and her have some splits in the way of thinking regardless the > 10 years of friendship. I wouldn't invite her if she has pissed me off. That's why people who have just met me would always ask the question, " How old are you? " At first, the first thing comes into my mind would be this person is going to say I look older than the actually age or something. Well, not. I'm glad that I might have been through many things at this age. Hopefully you get what I mean. Oh come on, fully not praising myself like how great am I, how bad you are. Just accept the truth and facts, it is because of people told me that way so I'm here to write whatever they think of me. However, do you think I will settle the problem? No, just let it be. I'm not that kind of people who will beg you like a beggar. It's definitely her choice to come or not to, as long as the fact is I've invited her and she refuses to attend. 

It's okay who do think you are, Stefanie? Everyone is born to have lovers, supporters and also haters. Another true fact is, even Jesus has haters. Best friends will stay and the family members are your fans, they just accept whoever you are. Maybe my physical appearance has cheated some of you. You might think, " Oh wow, you are so good and friendly and bla bla bla" Alright, I won't trust you if we only had like few minutes conversation perhaps? Actually I choose people to be my friend, based on my sixth sense, your attitude and the most important thing, your heart. The qualification, I named them.

Everyone can be your friend, but you have to choose wisely, who is worth a chance of being your true friend because the heart is invisible. Someone may look macho or pretty, can you see the real color of his/her heart? Maroon, oh cool. Then what about the deepest part of the heart? It can store lies and bad thoughts.Who doesn't know to speak cheesy words? Unless the person can't speak. Even the coma people can think although they can't move and in a deep sleep. So, only a few limited seats in my heart. Sorry to tell you if you're not a part of the audiences that I'm willing to tell you my stories of life. 

So, the compliments from true friends could be the encouragement as they appreciate what you've done to them secretly. I appreciate that. After so long, what's the main point of typing this point? Erm, no idea, just to murmur about the real me. I'm happy to be me but sad for you because you can't be me. :) Bye.

P.S: Frown eyebrows have turn into a big wide smile, writing is my best friend. *ignore the weak grammar*